life

it is really hard to describe other feelings just with this typewriting-hands,how we all are wonder the other person's life..
might be tougher than us,em maybe?

the lowest person in your life might be toughest human ever in this world..

man who has the hardest tribulations is the man who will be honoured afterlife...

things got really difficult when we cannot accept it..

lifes goes on,die will be the nightmare for the bad,materialistic people and so on..

the end often be the beginner for something new :)
seems to be good to end this this entry and start a new life ..

running till you feel the air and feel the wind that make you more lovely.

met

here the story began again.
you know,

sometimes i have a dream to be happy.

but

i ruin it

because i dont have fear,and its crazy

everyday,
i wait for nothing and still waiting

hmmm
let the life goes on...

sad life..
feel worse

i just feel want to turn aroung giddily myself alone
at the peace of rain
and just happy..

Great Days,Yest&Tod

Yesterday :

Seriouslyy!

I'm really happy~hehe

I met my cousin X)

yeahh,and we talk!

eventhought it was emm veryyyyyy little conversationnn,heh~

but,i think it was enough to make me happy ^^

Today:

Actually...today i should go back to my school,yeah ,boarding school...

I feel very upset...because...

the next exam is difficult..

i scared..

i have to realize that we are here in this dunya not to be someone's slave,we have our own choices,maybe some people know wht is the best for us..but we are the one who'd choose the path we want to travel,whether the good or bad or dangerous or ease..we choose it..to have experience and to understand..

tht's it :)

GREAT DAY TO:
1.See beautiful scenery
2.Encourage person
3.Detect kindness
4.Love somebody
5.Be naughty ^^

Why I ..

because..

there's always reasonss,

yup!

Everythings that happened,always have the reasons why :)

it is really sad to go back to the school when some people are having their holiday

it is really hard though...

for me...

someone called me fat,

it hurts me so much!

since i was a kid

wht sins i've made?

do people hate fat people?

does life always works  like tht?

does life only means for the perfect-er?

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I hate when people call me fat

I hate when people look down to other people

I hate when people are not being true with theirselves

I hate provoking things

I hate when people are too obssesed with the 'A' gred and good results

I hate when people jugde some people because of their personality

I hate when people had no sympathy

I hate when I have a lot things to be hate.. 

I hate it...

But..

I found happiness..

Those questions on my mind..

There's no answers :)

why?

people are different

our personality also different

so,

to prevent ourselves from sad and many disasterss

is...................

to admit.

:)

we are people

with human being

we care

we love

we admit

it is true,that i've been hurt for a long time..suffering to admit that i am fat,nothing,low profile,crazy,sick..but!i know...when we die..we should just die..when we have to live,we should live..why bother with something tht can make us such em monster,hehe..i am fat,but i still cute ;) i am fat,but i still smart?i am fat but i still love people..for who they are.enjoy the little things,because it may cause your big event in your life,maybe :) because,i feel the rain,i see the sun,and appreciate living things,that's why i still can continue my journey in this world.. to seek freedom,to love,to learn,to stay and to go..

i see the world clear,and start happy with everythings..

and i start to understand the spell...