hmmm,yee mungkin mmg aku tak ckup matang lagi...
asyik rasa nk seronok jee...
aku tak faham ape maknanya tanggungjawab..
dan aku patut berubah]bukan jadi mcm aku skrang...
aku tak pernah fikir pasal org lain...
aku kena berubah priority is priority...
hmm

new page??

haha,maybe to the posistive oneeee ;)

qwe

wht if this world gone.

would us also be gone?

so does tht means we need world to live?

this earth?

but...for wht?

why we need to live?





to be wht?
we always insult others just to make us feel comfartable
we always said we dont knowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
i learn something
actually saying 'i dont know' really can save you and your life
but..
we are being cruel to other people
not telling the truth
hiding the truth

selfish

tht is wht we are fighting

"be selfish!be selfish!it is good for you!"

hear it again     and               again

maybe your heart can say something?

or

ask your heart :)

it knows everything about you ^^

all the best

Shadow

looking back at my blog haha
really make me happy
it was like looking back, at my old self
i'm wondering how she was been right noww
ahahaha
i'jm just kidding
the girl tht i'm worried was me in present
yeah the one tht is reading and writing this post??
hehe
idk who you are dear reader
but
i just wnt to say tht i'm really thankful for who you areee
because you are a good person
you just read my blog
thank you for reading my life overall
thank you dear reader
you are the best
trust me ;)
i love you

AS if I know about this life earlier.
wht if i know wht will happened next?
i ll be so afraid
i wont be able to face tribulations in life,
i wont be able

Fav

Nurin
Life
Flower
White peacock
Eyes
Heart
Soul
Faith
Hope
Amazing
Great
Beautiful
Cozy
Warm
Lake
Mountain
Strawberry
Dandelion
Wild
Free
Sky
Blue
Black
Dark Brown
Mash Potatoes
Honest
Light
3 a.m
Dawn
Sunrise
Sunset
Calm
Dead
Red
Sea
Flight
Cloud
Music
Experience
Travel
Winter
Summer
Simple
Light
Easy
Fine
Love
Romantic

eyes

why feed your eyes with terrible things when you adore to having beautiful eyes...

take care of your eyes..

it describes you,dear.

life

it is really hard to describe other feelings just with this typewriting-hands,how we all are wonder the other person's life..
might be tougher than us,em maybe?

the lowest person in your life might be toughest human ever in this world..

man who has the hardest tribulations is the man who will be honoured afterlife...

things got really difficult when we cannot accept it..

lifes goes on,die will be the nightmare for the bad,materialistic people and so on..

the end often be the beginner for something new :)
seems to be good to end this this entry and start a new life ..

running till you feel the air and feel the wind that make you more lovely.

met

here the story began again.
you know,

sometimes i have a dream to be happy.

but

i ruin it

because i dont have fear,and its crazy

everyday,
i wait for nothing and still waiting

hmmm
let the life goes on...

sad life..
feel worse

i just feel want to turn aroung giddily myself alone
at the peace of rain
and just happy..

Great Days,Yest&Tod

Yesterday :

Seriouslyy!

I'm really happy~hehe

I met my cousin X)

yeahh,and we talk!

eventhought it was emm veryyyyyy little conversationnn,heh~

but,i think it was enough to make me happy ^^

Today:

Actually...today i should go back to my school,yeah ,boarding school...

I feel very upset...because...

the next exam is difficult..

i scared..

i have to realize that we are here in this dunya not to be someone's slave,we have our own choices,maybe some people know wht is the best for us..but we are the one who'd choose the path we want to travel,whether the good or bad or dangerous or ease..we choose it..to have experience and to understand..

tht's it :)

GREAT DAY TO:
1.See beautiful scenery
2.Encourage person
3.Detect kindness
4.Love somebody
5.Be naughty ^^

Why I ..

because..

there's always reasonss,

yup!

Everythings that happened,always have the reasons why :)

it is really sad to go back to the school when some people are having their holiday

it is really hard though...

for me...

someone called me fat,

it hurts me so much!

since i was a kid

wht sins i've made?

do people hate fat people?

does life always works  like tht?

does life only means for the perfect-er?

\

I hate when people call me fat

I hate when people look down to other people

I hate when people are not being true with theirselves

I hate provoking things

I hate when people are too obssesed with the 'A' gred and good results

I hate when people jugde some people because of their personality

I hate when people had no sympathy

I hate when I have a lot things to be hate.. 

I hate it...

But..

I found happiness..

Those questions on my mind..

There's no answers :)

why?

people are different

our personality also different

so,

to prevent ourselves from sad and many disasterss

is...................

to admit.

:)

we are people

with human being

we care

we love

we admit

it is true,that i've been hurt for a long time..suffering to admit that i am fat,nothing,low profile,crazy,sick..but!i know...when we die..we should just die..when we have to live,we should live..why bother with something tht can make us such em monster,hehe..i am fat,but i still cute ;) i am fat,but i still smart?i am fat but i still love people..for who they are.enjoy the little things,because it may cause your big event in your life,maybe :) because,i feel the rain,i see the sun,and appreciate living things,that's why i still can continue my journey in this world.. to seek freedom,to love,to learn,to stay and to go..

i see the world clear,and start happy with everythings..

and i start to understand the spell...

LIST TO DO (MUST)

ok.the list below is mine,not yours..so,if you are not okay with that,you can just go anywhere you like,and please be a very tolerate and kind person..please..everytime,everywhere..please.


wht is the point of being alive if we dont have our purpose to be here?

1.To be the best slave for Allah,the best as i could
2.To spread kindness
3.To be a good people
4.To get experiences

wht should i do everyday:

1.Pray 5 times
2.Make dua'
3.Aim for each day

i dont know whom these people,but i am really thankful to them because make a perfect list for a better life living :'')

Such  great & brilliant lists ever,Thank Youuuuu:'')

Mine..hjk

there's too much things that i've been worried..this lately...
idk why..
i'm feel something broken in my heart...
but,there's nothing to be fear...

wht should i do?

it's hard to be said with words..
because this is feelin'..

i'm feel sad..dissapointed...
wht i've been done?

my surrounding sometimes push me..to be a very strict person..
but..i dont like it!
i came to that school,not for learning how to be a worse person!
not even!
i just want to be a nice person..

that everyone comfortable with...

i hate narrow minded!ihate bad toughts toward others!i hate it!

i hate to be a hypocrite person!

please...

i dont want to be a person that is very kind in front of kind people,but with sinners they such very bad people,i mean they mocked,ridiculed and backbitting the sinners..

they are sinners but i know in a very deep of their heart,they still want to be good people!please..

i'm tired with this kind of surrounding..

look down to others..it just not fair..because we all the SAME!

nothing differetiate us!

NOTHING!

please!stop thinking that we are good people!we do sins too..so,we are sinners too...just because people dont see it,that's why we think that we still kind,no!we are not! please.......give them a second chance..they worth it...


mistake for the first time is a mistake..
but mistake for the second time is our choosen...

that's why we worth for second chance...

Deep 'in

deep deep inside of my heart..

it was really sad if we choose to be a bad guy..
because,
all of us are kind,truthly...

how can we be a bad guy when naturally we are so kind?

this is just another thought that appeared in my mind..

p/s: rain just came and,and they came bring calmness..it just so nice..

Draco Malfoy

the truth is...

Draco Malfoy is ain't a bad guy...

he is such a very nice guy inside...

The Fault In Our Stars

The Fault In Our Stars...

such a very beautiful story...

i'm crying so hard when augustus died..

why..

why he left hazel like that..

i just can't..

continue this...

this is just..

so sad...

.......... 

make him

if that makes him laughs

do it again

so he can laugh continuosly....